Billie was quite right.

I saw your face through the wine coloured light last night
There was nothing I could say and there was nothing I could do
The earth was shaking under my feet and the ice was melting under my shoes
So tell me what good could come out of this
How could I possibly mitigate the pain
It took some weeks to understand you were gone

When love is not enough...
Susan says

"eventhough it's sad 

It was meant to happen 

there's a purpose behind"
My eyes turned black

I hit the fist through my window
I said "leave me alone 

and don't you ever come back"
You're not entitled to make a sound
Don't intervene 

don't try to do good
I still don't understand 

you are gone

...